one of these days
2003-11-13 - 9:49 a.m.
so, i promised i'd get back to this eventually. i just didn't realize how long it would take me. i just haven't felt like writing much for the past year.
not that things haven't happened.
man have they happened.
i'm no longer dating silent bob. we satisfied our lust. i got kind of a renewal of myself out of the whole ordeal. i don't really care what he got out of it.
he and pride had a fling for a long while shortly after we ended. go fig. i knew it was coming and knew it was going on before he told me. yeah, i'm a little bitter. not with silent bob. more with pride. makes me want to keep my friends and my boyfriends completely separate from now on. no more dating within the circle from now on. no more even having interests within the circle. especially that circle.
i no longer have any interests in the circle, i'm pround to say. i'm completely done with pining over those i can't have. well, specifically one person i can't have.
on a happy note, i finally caught my cherub! i had thought i had let my amadeo slip through my fingers. but this summer, i slowly got my grubby little hands on him. now we're both bissfully happy. (not to mention i've but another flower under my belt -- that's been fun too.) he's such a wonderful, sweet man. it's been so long since i've been this happy. but i'll write more on this another time. if i get around to it... :)
i've spent so much time with music the past year. i'm still playing steel drums and all percussion in general (even though i've been neglecting most of my other instruments). we're still trying to get this band thing up and running with freakboy, mallet queen and sprite. and i've been spending a lot of time with amadeo, going to his shows (he now is involved with four groups), going with him to friends' shows, and checking out other bands in whom we're both interested. but this biggest musical thing that's going on right now is my teaching drumline to a local high school. this will be my 3rd season with them (last winter drumline, this fall marching season, and now winter drumline again). today will be the last day of auditions for them and we'll start teaching them the show next week. they kicked ass last year, doing better than they ever have. i'm hoping this year we can do even better. i picked this year's show concept: dreamscape. sounds like me, doesn't it? :)
i finally kicked my last idiot roommate and her fiancee out on their butts this may. i'm still looking for a new roommate. i haven't been trying all that hard, which is not good. my house is an expensive place when living alone.
sprite and mallet queen were handfasted this summer. it was a beautiful ritual. they're both living together in that great big house now. they'll make it permanent this summer, a year and a day after.
and i saw snaps recently. she's to be married this winter and is expecting her first child this spring. how wonderful!
on the opposite side of the spectrum, bj is now going through a divorce. her husband tried to kill her. Tried To Kill Her! bastard. wrapped his hands around her neck. after an argument, he followed her accross the apartment and tried to strangle her. she pushed him off and kicked his ass out. he's still blaming her (classic abuse pattern). fucker's trying to screw her over in the divorce by making her responsible for the debt he put them towards the end of the relationship through to the week after she kicked him out.
i really need to get in gear with school. i just need to make myself get it over with so i'm not at this stinking university when i'm 30. tiger's already graduated. silent bob's graduating this spring. all of these other people with whom i entered college are done or almost there. one of my friends who entered a year after is graduating this spring too! at 23, i should be behaving as an adult, but i can't get over my childhood irresponsibility.
ah diary, there it is. a brief synopsis of what i haven't been writing about. one of these days i'll get back to writing. it's such a release. keeps be from babbling on like an idiot to everyone else.
