free
2002-02-10 - 3:02 a.m.
well kids...
i'm happy.
it's refreshing! i can't think of the last time i smiled for no reason. i mean, just ask my friends, i laugh and smile all the time. but it's usually when something's there to laugh and smile about.
but there's nothing. i'm sitting here in my house, all by myself. sprite's been out with mallet queen all weekend, so izzy hasn't been calling. spent some time with malecide last night, but pride was there. i'm sitting here alone with the cats, listening to music and playing shitty microsoft games. no date. no boyfriend. no malecide.
and i'm happy.
i'm smiling.
i've got the urge to dance. to go to the middle of the room and spin around in circles, arms out wide, my head thrown back, and laugh. i'm not fighting the desire to grab the booze in the fridge anymore. no obsession to go find some acid. no will to settle for something less.
i feel...
free
