tell me about the fucking golf shoes
2002-05-21 - 12:31 p.m.
wow. i just don't know what to write. things are so boring around here. now that my grades are in (boo-hiss) and i don't have any projects to do or papers to write, i just don't have any motivation to write at all. more like no inspiration. i love to just sit at the keyboard and just type, but i don't feel as if i have anything to write.
this summer is going to be very interesting. while i'm in florissant for a month for my sister's wedding, i've got a few projects to work on, along with getting my sister reading with last minute plans. then after i get back, i have to write music, teach, and get lessons while getting ready for a new roommate.
yeah, this new roommate thing is gonna be interesting. sprite's moving out at the end of this month, so i'll be covering one month's rent by myself. then she'll be moving in and living with me for at least a year. this is what will be interesting...
this girl is the type that takes two showers a day, won't let anyone see her without any make-up on and hair done, and owns more dresses than i do t-shirts. i, on the other hand, wear black make-up if any, run a brush through my hair after my shower, and am lucky if my t-shirts have any color on them besides black. freakboy is the one who introduced me to her, so if she's used to His Gothness, i'm sure she'll be okay with me.
but then she never lived with him and they both have said that they never could do so or even date...
sprite's taking most of her shite with her on her move. that means i'll need to get a tv if i want to watch my movies. yes, of all the things i'm losing when she moves, this is the most important. but her big monstrosity of a computer desk will be gone, so i'll actually have a place to put things. i'll have to decide if i want to move my computer from my room to the livng room and keep all my musical instruments in my room or vice versa. either way, i'll be able to have my entire set-up of instruments.
all of this is fascinating to you, isn't it?
this week, while trying to pack, clean, and visit my doctors, i get to buy yet another bride's maid dress. yes, sprite's getting married to merlin. (they'll only have been dating for four months by the time the wedding comes [aug], but it was love at first sight. mallet queen and i adore him. and we don't have to deal with izzy and his bullshit any more.) so that makes three dresses, all different colors. now, don't get me wrong. all of these dresses are beautiful and can be worn for other formal occassions. but i don't have any other formal occassions. so all three will end up hanging in my closet with my old homecoming and prom dresses from high school. how beautiful they all are; all have that cast-aside feel.
"someone loved this dress instensely for one day, and then threw it out, like an old christmas tree."
paraphrase from fight club
amadeo popped up in my dream last night. hadn't really thought about him in a while. haven't heard from him. can't remember if he was the man i was dating in my dream, or if he was the object of my desires, causing distress in the man i was with.
hm. amadeo. curious.
freakboy's getting back to town today. i'm gonna see if i can squeeze in some lessons with him before i have to head home for a month. i think i'll call him tonight after i clean the bathroom and do some laundry. i've got just a couple of days to get all of this done and try to catch up on sleep missed during the last three months. no rest for the weary, eh?
i'm hoping xongo will wait until after saturday night to go back to ripon. i'd like to see him, even though it's gonna be very very tense. i'm afraid he's gonna bring a certain subject to the table, and i just don't know what to say to it. i'm afraid i'm gonna follow in demimetal's footsteps and accidentally treat xongo the way he demimetal treated me. i don't think i will, because i should be able to recognize it when it happens. but i don't want to be yet another woman that has hurt xongo.
wow. this has been a long entry. expecially since i thought i didn't have anything to say. sorry 'bout that. it's been nice to just type on any subject i want instead of keeping it to the professor's topic (or 'non-topic').
thanks for listening.
