head doctor
2002-01-07 - 5:00 p.m.
here we go again.
ya see, my problem is that my brain works too entirely fast for my fingers, so you'll have to bear with me as i try to get it to backtrack and get all my thoughts in.
saw vanilla sky today. i loved it, but i figured out why everyone's been giving it a bad review. i recommend seeing it, as long as you keep your mind open to different types of movies.
but that's niether here nor there.
i think that's part of what's inspired me to do what everyone used to suggest i should do.
on the way back from the movie, xongo and i got into a discussion about human nature, essentially. as usual, my brain works entirely different than his on this and every other subject. the same that it does with everyone else i know.
ya see, back in high school (god, seems a century ago), i used to be the shrink of every single group of friends with which i socialized. i was the one to whom they'd bring their problems. i was the one they'd ask opinions and assistance. they told me that i should be... dun-dun-duuun!... a psychologist.
blah... i told them they were nuts. didn't want to listen to everyone's problems all day. don't mind listening to my friends, but strangers? nah...
i think today lit a fire under my butt. all of a sudden i saw visions of myself getting an undergrad degree in psychology and going on to grad school, writing books with my ideas of humanity and how the human brain works and revolutionizing how people think. you know, being one of those kooks with crazy ideas that everyone discounts, except for a few fellow crazies.
i mean, i need to decide on a major anyway. i've been kinda floating. with everything. hence the all the drama with xongo. i mean, do i really want to keep my major? i was thinking of changing it anyway. i could do this. or was it just another pipe dream that i'll never follow through on... again.
i shoulda known this was gonna happen. my brain was going a little nutsy last night. chemical imbalance, i'm sure. need more drugs, right? sure...
