alas, poor horny miss hetfield
2002-08-09 - 11:31 p.m.
so, it's been no secret (well, to those who know me personally) that after i had that cyst a year ago and spent a week and a half in the hospital, my libido has dropped way down... like... off the face of the planet. this was one of the things that hurt my relationship with xongo. and it bothered me that i didn't want physical attention more.
now that i'm just recently comfortable with my nun-like existance and enjoying being single once more, i've had some strange happenings. i just got good news about my cyst. not only that, but the new moon coincided just right with a specific time of my monthly cycle last night. and on top of all that (and me), silent bob sat on me while giving me a back massage on the floor.
my god i can't remember the last time i was that horny.
and it was wasted on a night i was just spending time with a friend.
but it turned out okay. not long after, i had to go home so he could go to work. i drove like a bat out of hell, but i didn't help calm me. but the trip to wal-mart calmed me down.
fuck... i've been so jazzed lately. and that night just made everything better. i just can't seem to be in a bad mood lately. a little lonely, yes. as much as i'm enjoying being completely single, i also miss the best part of being in a relationship -- the cuddling and falling asleep in someone's arms. but i think everything i'm getting out of my situation is more that worth the price of not having someone to cuddle with. the companionship i get from my friends, mostly silent bob right now. i'm learning so much about myself and my talents. i'm so happy right now. happier then i've been in a very, very long time. i would give almost anything to stay this way.
