another spring break
2002-03-29 - 10:53 p.m.
ah... i'm approaching the end of spring break. how have i spent it? hitting the slopes with tiger in colorado? partying it up at theta sigma tau in wisconsin? spending time with my best friend during his last week at in his apartment in texas? rollin' high with mr. chicago in that city i love so much?
no.
i came back home to st. louis. and worked on a fuckin' banner (which all the music organizations have to make) for the goddamn kappa kappa psi/tau beta sigma convention. godddamnmutherfuckinghoover and his bloodypieceofshitkappas.
oh yeah... i can't forget helping my sister with her wedding plans. yeah, this wedding is in june and most of her plans aren't even set yet. i thought i was lazy...
it's been good though. i've been away from springpatch and away from malecide. granted, he's been on my mind quite a bit, but i haven't been seeing him everyday. so it's been a lot easier. it's just been so hard since i found out that i actually did have a chance with him once and lost it completely. and no matter how futile i know it is, i still can't manage to force myself from fighting for him. "today's the day when dreaming ends." (moulin rouge)
i look outside through the oak tree
its branches bare, nobby, and crooked.
i see the full silver moon
and the glow around it through the slight haze of cirrus clouds.
the man stares back at me.
my imagination turns
and runs rampant.
