ugh.
2001-07-02 - 4:00 a.m.
i have no clue whatsoever why i'm writing.
i've really nothing to say, nor anything to get off my chest.
i just feel like writing.
and through the sigh of time,
the wind shatters the evening.
crumble through the weeping face
of the bygone era.
whatever that means. if only i could be so poetic when not writing bullshit. faints oh, poor tourtured artist...
so, like, yeah... everybody's fucking getting married. i know more people getting married w/in the next two years! one of my two best friends just got married a month and a half ago and i was in the fucker! even my own sister's getting married soon. just watched one of xongo's best friends get married on saturday, and on the 14th, i'm goin' to boston to see my cousin get married.
it just seems like everyone has an engagement ring on...
except me.
which is cool and all. i mean, i'm still dealing with older issues. plus i'm flat out not ready to deal with real life. my ex- just came back to town. the one i almost married. yeah... he finally gave the band he was in 'the finger' and came back home to good ole st. lou. well, after a stop off in one of the carolinas to meet this chic he met online. now they're both movin' here. supposedly fell in love before even seeing each other in person. um... hehe... yeah. sure. i've heard that before. to me from him. that was before he said "maybe [he] was wrong." and now he 'loves' this chic. please... he wouldn't know the difference between love and ooh-this-girl-loves-me-so-i'll-lust-after-her if they bit him on opposite sides of his ass.
am i bitter? no. just a scorned bitch finding some way to release her wrath.
I Wish
Am I too corrosive
Am I just too weak
Am I too contagious
Am i just a freak
I wish that I could hold you
I wish that I could hate you
I wish that i could hold you one more
time, just one more time
Am I what you made me
Am I what you'll reap
Am I all you dreamed of
or am I just a creep
I still see you in my mind
I wish that I could have more time
I know that it will be just fine
All is well now, no need to cry,
no need to cry...
Drain STH -- Freaks of Nature
siotd:
Thou warped fly-bitten canker-blossom.
