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weed woes and asshole parents
2001-05-12 - 10:38 p.m.


ugh...

i feel so guilty.

a friend of mine just got in huge trouble, and it feels as if it's my fault.

she's 17 and about to graduate high school. hiding her lesbianism from her parents, she was planning to attend university of missouri-columbia in the fall.

for four years now, i've tried to be a bit of a big sister to her. i befriended her when she was first a freshman in high school. i talked to her when other people were fed up with her. after i left her behind and went away to school, i always tried to listen to her whenever she had a problem.

i feel as if i've failed her.


when i came home for the holiday season, i started hanging out with her more often again. she wanted to do something with me for new year's, so my man and i took her to a party. that's where she had her first alcoholic drink and first toke off of a pipe.

since then, she's kinda gone hog wild with the weed. she smokes all the time. on the way to school. before and after work. in the park. in the parking lot. in the attic.

the entire school knows about her. she would have gotten caught once if she hadn't been tipped off that the principal was going to search her.

today, she finally got caught by her overprotective parents. i don't know the details yet, but from what i know goes on with her parents, her mother was probably snooping in her things looking for cigarettes and found her stash for this weekend. not only is she grounded from going out and talking on the phone and who the hell knows what, her parents are going to make her go into the military. she already has an appointment in the next day or two to talk to the navy.

now, i'm not the one who bought her the weed. i haven't been holding the pipe up to her lips. but i feel responsible. her parents let her do things with me because they thought i was a good person and a good influence for her. i tried warning her that she should be more careful or she'd get caught, but she just blew me off. i feel i should have tried harder. or maybe not have helped her pick out pipes. or not have let my man offer her the weed in the first place. i know she would have come across it sooner or later from the friends she's been hanging around with, but i still feel that it's partly my fault. she might not be able to get the education she so wanted.

she wants to call me about it in two days when she's at school, but i'll be at work then. hopefully she'll be able to call me at work. if her parents haven't realized this has had something to do with me, i want to try to talk to them to talk them out of this shit.


i wish i know more of what to do. i can't really tell my parents everything -- my man may have the guts to tell his parents about smoking weed, but i sure as hell don't.


what can i do?


siotd:
Thou infectious fool-born mumble-news.

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